looking at it

one thing i look forward to when coming to australia is the free metro paper mX.
my favorite section of the paper is called Here's Looking at You. It publishes street admirer's thoughts (whatever you call it). Probably im a hopeless romantic. It's not scary like some stalker is constantly looking at you, i just like the idea that someone is appreciated.


i like to one day read in it that someone notices me from a sea of strangers *dreamy*

not his fan

i wonder if he reads things about him in the internet

i wonder if there's a chance that he'll come across this and read something about himself

i don't want him to see me as another fan

everyday i search the internet about him and everyday i learn something new

i like it that way

i hope it never ends

i hope to learn something about him from himself!

thus two months after

i can't remember how it hit me.

this sudden surge of LAZINESS + making myself believe i am DEPRESS for whatever reason i find depressing..

i saved money to buy me a laptop and i did. i convinced myself i need a tablet pc 'coz i believe i am an artist so, i bought this.

i imagined myself inspired all over again by my new tablet pc i said i will be selling artistic thingies online or sell something online or get some jobs online to return the money i used to buy this laptop.

i earned around (roughly) 2% of my target online income and it stopped from there.

i set up this online travelogue.

i made efforts to watermark my pictures but it proved tedious to a supposedly artistic person so i stopped. and the travel stories stoppped too! i don't know why!!!

i still travel plus i have new destinations. new stories in those two months but they never got published here.

i have internet access to almost anywhere i go. i don't know why i didn't even bother to write.

then i got emails of people following this blog. don't really know if they follow this because of the content or they just have to but i am glad they did. it fueled me to blog again.

thank you

up early

i planned to stay asleep as long as i could but i can;t believe im up by 630am *local time*! to think that i slept around 12ish last night.ugh!

during the night i was a awakened by the alarm which i forgot to switch off. and this morning i woke up with my throat feeling dry and itchy. forgot to drink my vit. Cs or even eat some citrus..that's probably why

advice from beau

im so happy i never expected boyfriend to support my higher studies. usually, which means most of the time, he has an opposite and stronger opinion to what i want, to what i like to do, my plans..but this time, he unexpectedly said he likes my idea! only he wants me to start studying in local universities first before going abroad. i could go with that, but maybe for just a year, after all what's a european languages study if you're surrounded by your local neighbor???

dreaming of italy

recently, i get very high from dreaming of being in italy, speaking italian, studying in italy (in vatican if possible), and everything italian.

i want to pursue this feeling of rush but i really don't know. i have studied french and if there is something i should continue studying i think it would be french. but thinking about it now, or maybe because of the recent fancies i'm having, france seems to lack in luster compare tothe adventure and romance italy is offering in my dreams.

don't know. can't decide. but i know i want to pursue higher studies on foreign language

sick away from home

it's my first time to be sick in japan
it is an awful awful feeling!
excruciating headache and vomiting
i hate the feeling of vomiting
it sucks and expands my stomach in a painful way
plus i have to act fast to stop myself
from initiating another vomit

really really thankful i have a friend staying in my room
she helped me feel better
though i didn't eat so much last night
i had to force myself to drink a paracetamol
now i feel a little better
i hope this goes until tonight
i still have a flight to catch!

when plans don't go as planned

i get frustrated
i totally
totally
hate it
but now
as i was supposed to write
all things bad
i realized
this is part of it
a plan greater than mine
might be small
or i might not see it yet
i want to pass this test
be calm
in my own way

unhealthy online living

Ever since the free wifi was up again around our couch area i have lost my early sleeptime resolution! this is not healthy at all. i don't blog much but facebook takes most of my time. and recently ebay.

i hate setting up an item to sell but i am soo anxious for them to sell! no, im not what im selling. haha

learning about fear

today i learned that being happy is hindered by fear.

because we fear so much we limit ourselves to do and love so much.

i fear a lot:

i fear what others think of me.

i fear others would not understand me.

i fear my ideas are too weird.

i fear ghosts.

i fear i am not beautiful enough.

i fear the greatness there is.

i fear i may be too weak.

i fear i might fail someone.

i fear i might disappoint someone.

i fear i might anger someone.

i fear all these fears might not go away..

book-off fan

i love the book off shop in japan. you would easily recognize the store with their logo, a kanji of the word book.

the one in aeon mall narita is my favorite because not only does it have dizzying amount of books but it also sells clothes, toys, and really good gift ideas like towels which some have brands like burberry. elle, or YSL. almost all the things they sell are used that's why we also call it the re-use store, but i like to believe that the towels they sell are the open samples from stores because i think nobody would still keep the towels' boxes in neat and presentable condition, and i don't think it is very hygienic to sell used towels 'cause it can spread skin disease. well, i never bought towels for myself yet, anyway.

i just bought a pair of kid's hello kitty bikini and a kid's hello kitty surfer's shirt [err i dont exactly know what it's called]. i can't wait to give it to my friends daughter. i hope she will like it. i can't wait.

items posted

yey my items finally got posted on eBay!

just keeping my fingers crossed that somebody would take notice

the impatient me

so funny how my patience is easily tested. i just said that i wont let this day end without me posting at least one item on ebay. i was able to successfully enlist an item but when i can't find it on the search list i got frustrated badly! i did not even consider that ebay needs ample time to arrange and verify things before they can index it correctly. well, now i know and i can't wait until tomorrow =D

i wanna be on ebay

i am on fire again to start something new. i want to be on ebay! but it seems to me it is more complicated than it looks:

i have to write a good description.
i have to take good pictures of the items
i have to search for couriers.
i have to settle what payment is agreeable to me.
i want the bank deposit thing but i dont know my account number! i
m in japan, i dont have online access to it. arg!
i want to set this up before my five days in japan end.
i want to be on ebay!!!

be careful what you wish for...

i prayed to God He bring me something or someone who would lead me back to Him and i got it...His answer is so strong that i forgot the road that leads to Him is narrow and difficult. i am in that road now and i am not sure if i can make it.

The Passion

Reflections that Jesus makes on the mystery of His suffering and the value it has on the Redemption.
Cochabamba - Bolivia
Spanish Editions: 1996 and 1998
English 1st Edition - November 1999

Jesus Prays in the Garden
Extract 4
Jesus

Nobody really believes that I perspired blood that night at Gethsemane, and few believe that I suffered much more in those hours than in the Crucifixion. It was more painful because it was clearly revealed to Me that the sins of everyone were made Mine and that I should answer for each one. Thus I, being innocent and pure, answered to the Father as if I were really guilty of dishonesty and of all the impurities committed by you, My brothers. You dishonor God who created you to be instruments of the greatness of Creation and not to stray from the nature given you with the purpose of gradually taking that nature to lead you to behold the pure vision of Me, your Creator.

Therefore, I was made thief, murderer, adulterer, liar, a sacrilegious person, blasphemer, slanderer, and rebel to the Father whom I have always loved.

It was precisely this contrast between My Love for the Father and His Will that caused My perspiration of blood. But I obeyed until the end and for Love of everyone, I covered Myself with the guilt so that I could do My Father’s Will and save you from eternal damnation.

Consider how many more than human agonies I had that night and, believe Me, nobody could alleviate such anguish because, on the contrary, I was seeing how each one of you devoted yourself to making my death cruel at every moment that was given to Me because of the offenses whose penalty I have paid in full. I want it to be known once again how I loved all men at that hour of abandonment and sadness without name….

enchanted kingdom

we just visited one of the most popular theme parks in the philippines. it's not a very big park, you can go through all the rides in just a day given that it is not peak season. it's sad you can see some of the rides needed repainting or higher maintenance attention. also, some attractions still require a separate fee even when you avail the all day pass ticket.

see: enchanted kingdom

new telly

yey. we finally got a new telly after straining our eyes for years from the old t.v. which already produces horizontal lines on the screen. this is like the first appliance i contributed in our home. though i did not pay for it fully. me and my brothers are gonna split up the bill. =D

i tried looking for some info at the net regarding the brand Devant, the one that we have, but i found no official sites about it.

i think it's a good buy anyway. they say Next Base made the TV, and with 30,000php the 32" lcd hdmi ready comes with a free next base hdmi dvd player.

cheap buy in sydney

in sydney, i always make it a point to stop by SES store. they sell cheap clothes. i got a very nice winter jacket from them for only below 20aud. you can find many SES shops in sydney cbd alone. just walk along george street, or enter a shopping mall, in the corner turn, somewhere in the subway...it's just all over the place! it's just confusing almost all of the clothes they sell bear the brand avocado..maybe it is the name of the shopwhere they get all their merchandise. i have a good feeling they import it from china.

a cinderella fan

most nights in japan, i have been re-running the tagalized monogatari version of cinderella to serve as my sweet lullaby. i am in love with the story of the strong willed girl who makes an equally strong willed prince madly in love with her. i like the idea that the prince loves her so much but he just can't say yet who he really is, thus it also hinders his chance to tell her how much she means, though his actions show it.

recently, i have seen the movie "ever after" starring drew barrymore and dougray scott, and i have fallen in love with their their version on the story as well...*sigh*dreamy eyes*blush*

a scene from episode 11 of monogatari's version of cinderella

Danielle: It is not fair, sire. You have found my weakness, but I have yet to learn yours.
Henry: But I should think it was quite obvious. [referring to Danielle]

koala from australia

cute koala bears.
sad we were not able to cuddle them. they say it is prohibited to touch them except in Queensland area in australia. though they say that in featherdale park [sydney], they allow you to pet them.

i was lucky enough to hear a koala cry. it sounds like a cross between a cow's and a pig's cry. haha. believe me! even i thought they were silent animals until i heard it for real =D

cute koala from the sydney wildlife world

yes, it is true.